似乎想通了。
不是你的，怎么样都不是属于你的。
何必如此闷闷不乐？
你的难过，她会知道吗？

再也不想被你左右我的心情。
你仍然是我的朋友。
只是之间多了一层心墙。

隔膜，几时才会消失？
让时间，慢慢消磨。。

她。。

她。

只是万万没想到，我在这里也遇到了一样的问题。心里很难受。

人，怎么那么奇怪。有些人一开始对你很好很好，就突然间莫名其妙不理会你了。

我想爆了脑袋，我想不到有做出令你不悦的事。可能，只是我太过敏感了。

失去了你这个好朋友，我无所谓。。真的。。

但是一听见你和别的朋友高谈阔论，笑声连连，

内心却莫名地揪着。胸口好闷。

注定是成不了知己吗？

好可惜啊。。因为我早已把你当成我最好的朋友。

Assignments peak

Assignments peak

This few weeks assignments screwed up my life. My life never been so hectic before. I was so truely exhausted no matter physically or mentally. 10 assignments came in one time, and the deal date was almost the same time. I tried, to enjoy myself from the pain, but somehow, i failed to do so. I was stressed up and fu*k up. My friend said i done my assignments in a speed way and at least i do not have to sleep late and wake up early to rush assignments. But no one knows what i am suffering now. I am glad that, i still have a bunch of crazy friends, and my love. They helped out a lot. But, i am so guilty that, i still have to make him worried about me. I know something happened to him, everyone from this Earth is bothering him. And the funniest is i still whining my small problems in front of him. I really have no one to speak to.

Assignmenst, volley ball, gymnasium. 3 things come along. And what's finally, i only left 2 assignments. But the scariest thing is, volley ball examination i scored an egg for it. Zero. I have to retake it next week. I was trying to practice, but i dunno why my right hand always can't aim it nicely. I really angry myself for can't even handle a ball. Next, and what most bothering me. Gymnasium. Lecturer hates our team. I knew. Cause we love to try something new instead of just repeat the same routine of gym dance. Hence, he likes to scold us in sarcasm way. I am getting afraid of Wednesday's coming. Coming here, is it the best decision? Is it the right choice? Why, i am so fed up of it. And it is just only the first sem. 

I afraid i will collapse one day. But, i promised you, i will stay strong, and support you when you collapse. Don't worry, no matter how cruel the world is, i will still be your good good good girlfriend :)

You know the bed feels warmerSleeping here aloneYou know I dream in colorAnd do the things I want
You think you've got the best of meThink you've had enough the last laughBet you think that everything good is goneThink you left me broken downThink that I'd come running backBaby, you don't know me, 'cause you're dead wrong
What doesn't kill you makes you strongerStand a little tallerDoesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm aloneWhat doesn't kill you makes you fighterFootsteps even lighterDoesn't mean I'm over 'cause you're gone
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, strongerJust me, myself and IWhat doesn't kill you makes you strongerStand a little tallerDoesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone
You heard that I was starting over with someone newThey told you I was moving on, over you
You didn't think that I'd come backI'd come back swingingYou tried to break me, but you see
Thanks to you I got a new thing startedThanks to you I'm not the broken-heartedThanks to you I'm finally thinking 'bout meYou know in the end the day you left is just my beginningIn the end