Orientation week.

Orientation week. 

Finally, its over! Well, at least for now :P I'm back! This feeling is damn freaking nice, finally i can bath with warm water, can take my own sweet time to bath without worrying that someone may be waiting for the bathroom, can talk on the phone loudly without worrying my room mate would accidentally heard my conversation, can sleep as long as I wish without being annoyed by the alarm clock early in the morning, can online sweetly with full bar of internet connection.. The life in there is seriously very suffering. Especially the first few days. We were lead by a commander. And he was freaking, scary. He somehow enjoy scolding us for no reason and every night we're forced to stand for around 1 hour plus with our high heels on to listen to his nagging. Perghh, my feet damn painful. Countless plasters on my feet now. We barely have enough time to sleep this week. Everyday we have to wake up around 4 in the morning and rush to toilet as fast as possible before other people starts to queue up for the bathroom. Throughout this week, all the activities started at 6a.m and freaking lots of taklimat even though all of us are having heavy eyelids. Yawn~ I almost fall asleep at every taklimat. It is super super boring. And in the middle of the taklimat we were only given 5 to 10 minutes to eat and rush back to the hall!! I felt bad that i always cant finish the food in time and have to waste it. The worst part is after the last taklimat at 10.30pm, we have to listen to our commander's nagging. Standing for hours and listen to him telling stories to increase our sleepiness. Why la torturing us. Haha. But, I'm glad I made some new friends there. I feel lucky that my classmates are all AWESOME!!! :) I guess in future, my class will be very very fun :) But despite that, i still failed to hold back my tears when I called my parents at night. Tears just keep falling and there's no way it can stop. This homesick is really killing me. Causing my parents to worry me. Felt really bad about that. Honestly, i was very disappointed of the school and i really wanted to come back so badly. I'd rather remain at Form 6.  But...I'm not giving up..for my parents sake. For them, I'll continue to stay there until I'm done with my degree without any regrets. Today is my first time boarding on a bus to get back home. Stuck in the bus for around 6 hours. So tired. Even though the journey is long and tiring, I dun care, I'm still coming back home often for the next few weeks! I miss my home so much :')  Here, I would like to thanks my parents, for worrying me, for buying broadband for me, for shedding their precious tears for me. Next, is my love one. Every night no matter how late I return back to hostel, he will be there with me. Listening to all my complains, consoling and comforting me when i cried. Hugging the Domo he gave me as if  I'm hugging him. I love you ♥     

Time to sleep, can't wait to see him tomorrow :) 

Nights :D

The story between You and Me.

The story between You and Me.

Going to Penang two weeks later. Honest speaking, i am excited yet depress. As what i hope so badly, i got the offer, however, i will lose something in return. God always fair to everyone. I gained the offer hence lose something in the mean time. I will no longer be the girl that staying at home enjoying papa's protection. I'm so afraid that i unable to manage everything by myself and take care of myself. This feeling sucks.

I miss him. I guess i'll very miss him when i am there. I really can't imagine what will happened to us next. But i always believe in him and me. He is a very very special person to me since the very first day we met. The memories are still fresh and i still remember every single details about you and me. He is from Chinese Society when he was in secondary school. And he is my reason, why i became so active in Chinese Society. Just like in the movies and dramas, i hated him before I even know him. He is so noisy and his voice is so ridiculously loud and irritating. That day, he lead my group, and i was in a very bad mood. And his voice is at its usual volume. Urgh, i remember it so clearly, i stared at him so fiercely and curse him in my heart. I hate that loud fella. I always say that to my friends. He is so flirty with girls and so noisy. I hated him so much. Somehow i get to know him though my friends after a while. We fought every time we met. Sooner or later, my mind came out a stupid idea. An idea to shoo him away from me. But things dint went according to plan, this stupid idea made me and him became even closer to each other instead of pushing him away. Since when we became friends? I don't really know. Everything went with the flow. He loves to smile showing off his 2 rows of teeth. And with that hilarious laughing sound. Remember once, after Chinese Society's activity, i waved to him and say goodbye. For a moment, I froze. I saw him smiled and waved back at me. First time smile so sweetly to me. At that moment, i knew, he is my only one. He changed my world.

Thanks for everything :) Please remember our 10 years promise and i promised you i'll fulfill it :)

如果爱你是错的话，我不想对。 如果对是等于没有你的话，我宁愿错一辈子。


没遇到你之前，我没想过结婚，遇见你，结婚这事我没想过和别人。


I'd rather have a rainy day with you than seein' sunshine alone 
Or have a hundred days of winter with you in my arms 
I' ll be your shelter from the storm just to have you by my side 
If i could find you.

2.18am

2.18AM

It has been long time that i didn't update my blog. Yay, i'm enjoying school holidays! It is so funny that we studied or play  for 2 weeks and holidays for next two weeks. Nuh, school holidays are ending very very soon. One more day :/ I love my form 6 life. But, i deeply hope that, i can passed my interview and get away from form 6. I have awesome and crazy friends, juniors, posts, and much more. But, i really do not have the confident, to take STPM. I'm really scare. I am afraid that i can't do well in term 1 and so the next term. How, if i can't get brilliant results? How if i can't in good public university? How if i can't study medical course and be a doctor? I failed my chances in matriculation. I can't afford to lose that chance too. Please God. Help me. 

Imma watching Running Man. I'm just so addictive to it. They are just so funny. I always hope to play this kind of "running" games. It is so interesting! While waiting for it buffer, so i update my almost dead blog :) I met my friends today. Best and old friends. I miss them so so much. Everyone is changing. No matter in appearance or personalities. We have grown up. We are no longer 16 or 17 years old girl and boy that can run around the town. We are 18 years old. That legal age. HAHA. I have a wish for this year. I must change few of my bad habits and be a better person. I must turn into more mature thinking girl. Oh no, still got two years and i gonna be 20 years old. I sound so old! And, i must study really very hard. No matter i finally passed the interview and get the offer, or STPM. Next, i want to meet, a close friend. In form 6, i am a lonely person. Although i know a lot of people and friends, but i do not have a close friend. I felt so lonely when i need someone's help. 

Ishh, he is in Korea now, enjoying covered by pretty korean girls. Haha. But, i missed him so much. Take care dae ji :p

Smile , is the best potion to solve every problems. Yeah so smileeeeeee :)